Photo by Ann Marie at Age Old Tree
I love Fall, but somehow I'm struggling a bit lately. I find myself asking, "Have I done enough today? Am I living my life to the fullest extent possible? Am I doing all I can to nurture my friendships? Am I showing my best self to my kids?" The questions go on and on. For some reason, the colder season seems to increase this introspection. In the Summer, it seems so much easier - with cookouts and vacations and other opportunities to step outside the daily routines and fill life with joy. It seems like it should be as easy in the Fall - pumpkins, apple-picking, cider, leaves and all that - but it doesn't seem to be that way this year.
photo by Leslie Thomson
Perhaps because the weather has been grayer and wetter than usual. Perhaps because my husband's travel schedule has picked up yet again. Perhaps because although I now see the light at the end of the tunnel at work, it's a long tunnel. Whatever it is, I am fighting hard. I am working to appreciate all that the season has to offer. I just wish it didn't feel like work. I also find myself comparing our lives to others, which is a generally awful thing to do. Everybody has their trials.
But then I think I'm being too hard on myself. Of course we all have those periods when the focus of our lives is on the routines. The school drop-offs, meetings, dinner, bedtime... I have a ridiculous amount of things in my life for which to be grateful, and I am. Truly.
So I will chalk this up to a funk and get back to being the optimist I have become. Time for a cup of hot cider, a few moments of peace, and curling up in bed with a good book. What was I complaining about?
by Scoutie Girl