Summer can't come fast enough. We are just about there. Actually, I guess we are already technically there, since summer started a couple days ago, and the boys wrapped up their school years yesterday. But there's one last baseball game tonight, and one week to go before Nathan's birthday and the start of our first vacation. Again...it can't come fast enough.
It's been a wonderful couple of months, but it has moved at a hectic pace. We are all craving a change in routine. One that is quieter, and more open. Yesterday, Nathan asked me, "When can we have a day when we have absolutely nothing planned?" "Sunday", was my reply.
I haven't been able to stop thinking about the alligator attack at Disney. Just a couple months ago, we were sitting on that exact beach, and the boys played in the sand near the water as we waited for the movie to start. My heart literally aches at the thought of what happened to that little boy and what that family will have to endure for the rest of their lives. I can't help but think of the seemingly randomness of life. Why that little boy? Why not one of the thousands of others who have dipped their toes in those waters? Why not one of mine? (And my heart aches more.)
I talk with fellow mothers about our children, making plans and decisions and exchanging stories. It's good to talk it out with people who get it. Parenting is hard, and we all want to get it right. I can second-guess myself, and I recognize that we are not always consistent with the boys. I think we're doing pretty well so far, but I will never let down my guard.
I need more yoga in my life. How to make it happen?
I am going through a leadership program at work right now, and it has caused me to be very introspective. We get evaluated not only on the hard skills, but there is also a lot of focus on our personality types and history and understanding why we are the way we are and how that influences our decisions and perceptions and performance at work. It's interesting and eye-opening in many ways.
Meanwhile, I am wrapping up my current project and will be moving on to a new client soon. Consulting is a difficult occupation for someone who is not fond of change.
But before I start anything new, I will enjoy a week at the Cape with family. I can't wait to relax on the beach, close my eyes and feel the sun on my face, and listen to the waves.
And before that, I will celebrate my Nathan, who turns 7 next week. (!) We will have a gaggle of boys running around the yard playing all manner of sport and hopefully having a blast. I can't wait.
I don't want to wish any time away. I am going to appreciate every moment, including tonight's last baseball game (coaching a team of 7-year-old boys has been the highlight of my spring).
Summer is here! Hooray!