For the first time in what feels like a really long time, I'm in a funk. For the past several days, I've been on edge, and I'm not even really sure why. I guess life ebbs and flows like that sometimes. I found myself getting more frustrated with people than necessary, uncomfortable in social situations, and overall I think maybe just a bit bored.
It wasn't a bad weekend. We played baseball, grilled dinner, picked veggies from the garden. We visited an old high school friend of Kevin's on Sunday. He and his family have a house on a lake, so we hung out, took the boys for rides on the boat. It was a really lovely day, but I just couldn't relax and enjoy it for some reason.
The climax of the negativity occurred on Sunday evening, when I accidentally left a potholder too close to the stovetop. It caught on fire, burning an ugly spot on our not-even-one-year-old island countertop. I wanted to cry. I actually woke up at four o'clock this morning, stressed about it and unable to go back to sleep. I will keep it in perspective, I promise. However, this type of house stuff hanging over my head is a source of stress I had hoped was mostly behind me. (Also still battling a floor issue, we have doors that need to be hung and painted, and these ridiculously hot and muggy weeks have Kevin determined to investigate central air conditioning.)
So now I take a deep breath and look forward to a new week. We have more fun plans coming up, so I will plan for those and look forward to them. I'm going to reach out to friends, continue exercising every day, drink lots of water (and delicious homemade lemon-limeade!), eat healthy lunches with those veggies from the garden, read good books, and relish the fact that I get to hang out with my boys and play during the day. It's all good.